Big Changes for 2013

I joined weight watchers online yesterday, and I am SO excited to have found something that I can lose weight on yet not be on a ‘diet’ per se.  I have lost all my baby weight from my newest little one, but want to shed 30 more lbs by my brothers wedding in June of this year.  This means about 1.4 lbs per week.  Day one and two have gone good so far, Im eating more than I ever did before, and feeling very full! Plus all fruit is 0 points… BONUS!

I decided that this year is going to be the year I finally do something for myself, that in return will benefit my entire family.  I’m healthy and not obese right now, but if I lose these 30lbs, Ill be that much more of an example to my family of discipline and health.  You cant put a price on that.  I want to continue to be the Mommy that can run around with my boys and not have to sit and watch because I weigh too much, or have bad health. 

When you become a Mommy, all priorities shift, rightly so, and for the past 2.5 years I have always put myself third, after my kids and hubby.  Now, my kids needs will still come first, but I need to put myself as a top priority to make this happen too.

Ill keep you updated!

What do we make of 12/14/12

I have to admit, I have not been able to stop thinking of those previous children and lives taken this past friday by a mentally ill young boy.  As a Mommy, I just cant even fathom what those families are feeling and not feeling.  The utter thought of not seeing either of my boys again literally makes me feel sick to my stomach.

What can we do as parents to help this world that can sometimes be very cruel?  First, We need to stop blaming God.  God is responsible for all things good, and nothing bad.  He gave us all free will, and therefore cannot just stop something bad happening to good people.  There is a devil at work in the world, yet, noone ever seems to blame him?

We need to be sure we are raising up good strong young men and women, who will add to this world and not take away from it, who will leave it a better place because they lived.  We need to teach them the value of life, and to live every day to the fullest.  We need to discipline them, and let them know they will not always get what they want when they want it.  We need to be sure they know where to look for examples and heros, and where to go to feel loved.  The young man who took so many lives on 12/14, in my opinion, did not know how to add to the world in a positive way to be remembered, so he chose this tradegy as a way to be remembered on this earth.  He didn’t have any Godly, strong men in his life to look to for an example, and he looked in the wrong places for a hero.  I am a mother of 2 boys, but I myself, as a woman, can not raise boys by myself.  They need their Daddy to show them things that I cannot, and if someone does not have an active Daddy in their life, they need to get a strong mentor to help them. 

Now, I am not negating the fact that this individual had mental problems, and that this would be solved by a mentor or a strong Daddy, he obviously needed help too.  Why has the health care system failed so many who need mental help?  Do they feel ashamed?  Are the mocked?  Are they not taken seriously?  These are real problems that the Health care system should address to get these people the help they need, so they can be saved.

So, where do we go from here? Personally, I will pray for the Mommy’s and Daddy’s, the siblings, the grandparents, cousins, aunts and uncles, friends, sons, daughters, survivors and the sweet little souls now in heaven, daily.  I will pray for their comfort, and to know that a whole world is grieving with them.  I will pray that they are able to have some sort of normalcy returned to their lives.  I will pray that they can breathe again one day without feeling like they have a dagger in their hearts.  I will pray that they will never forget their loved ones.  I will pray that they can get the images out of their head of that tragic day.  I will pray that they do not live in fear, and that they can go out and live victoriously.